hurry up and wait
May 18, 2011
Hurry up and wait. That seems to be the phrase my Mom is using a lot these days. We just got a call from Vanderbilt this morning. Apparently, the tissue from my core biopsy wasn’t sufficient to make any kind of diagnosis. So, as scheduled on Wednesday morning, I have to have another biopsy, except this time they have to cut out a piece of my gland in my neck for testing. Then we should hear something 5 to 7 days later.
I probably won’t be nervous about the surgery until I get there. That’s usually how it goes. Right now I’m just frustrated that I have to wait another two weeks uninformed and untreated. I just want to find out and get this over with, get back to Boone, finish school, and get married. Those are my plans. But I had different plans a few weeks ago, so I am constantly reminded that my plans aren’t always His. I’m okay with that though, because His word says, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”-Romans 8:28 And not that He needed to, but He has proven this verse true so many times in my life already.
Receiving the news at first was heart wrenching, but I know this is just a season in my life. I know how extremely blessed I am to have the opportunity to even be able to get medical attention and have so many people praying and rooting for me to conquer this thing. Love you all.
IN A NUTSHELL
- The core biopsy from last week was inconclusive
- I have another biopsy (an incisional biopsy) on Wednesday morning
- We will have to wait 5-7 days after the biopsy for a diagnosis
- My family and I will pray for patience as we continue to wait two more weeks in the dark about what exactly is going on
- I still have PET scans this Friday, as well as a bone marrow biopsy in which I am not looking forward to, but I know I will be just fine